Announcer: COMING UP, AS A CHILD,

KASEY EXPERIENCED HER PARENT'S MESSY DIVORCE

AND WAS RAPED BY HER FIRST BOYFRIEND.

IT WAS THE HARDEST DAY OF MY LIFE.

CANCER IS NOTHING.

Announcer: AFTER MARRIAGE, SHE SUFFERED FROM DEPRESSION

WHICH LED TO AN AFFAIR.

AND THREE WEEKS AFTER THE SECRET CAME TO LIGHT

I ATTEMPTED TO TAKE MY LIFE.

Announcer: HER TRANSFORMING JOURNEY

FROM PAST HURTS TO A VICTORIOUS FUTURE -- NEXT!

Randy: HI, I'M RANDY ROBISON.

THIS IS MY WIFE, DEBBIE.

MY PARENTS ARE OFF TODAY

TAKING A LITTLE BREAK.

WE APPRECIATE YOU WATCHING.

WE HAVE A WONDERFUL GUEST

TODAY, KASEY VAN NORMAN

IS THE AUTHOR OF THE BOOK,

NAMED BY GOD,

AND REALLY SOMEONE

WHO'S BEEN THROUGH SOME

AMAZING THINGS IN HER LIFE

AND HAS AN AMAZING TESTIMONY.

THAT'S WHY WE'VE ASKED HER --

WOULD YOU WELCOME KASEY

TO LIFE TODAY?

Kasey: THANK YOU.

THANK YOU SO MUCH! THANK YOU.

Randy: THANK YOU

FOR BEING HERE!

Kasey: IT'S AN HONOR!

IT'S AN HONOR.

Randy: WE NEED

TO MENTION UP TOP

BECAUSE WE PROBABLY WON'T

TALK ABOUT IT A WHOLE LOT

IN TODAY'S PROGRAM

BUT YOUR HAIR IS NOT

NORMALLY THIS SHORT.

Kasey: IT'S NOT? NO, IT'S NOT.

Randy: THE BOOK PHOTO IS NOT.

Kasey: NO, IT'S NOT.

I JUST FINISHED MY FOURTH

ROUND OF CHEMOTHERAPY

TWO MONTHS AGO.

DIAGNOSED WITH NON-HODGKIN'S

LYMPHOMA ABOUT SIX MONTHS AGO,

BEEN THROUGH SOME

CHEMOTHERAPY TREATMENTS.

AND BY THE GRACE

AND MERCY OF GOD,

I'M IN FULL REMISSION --

FULL REMISSION.

Randy: GOOD NEWS!

Kasey: SO YES! YES!

ABSOLUTELY! LOTS OF PRAYER.

Randy: BUT BEFORE GETTING

TO THIS LATEST STRUGGLE,

YOU'VE HAD A FEW OTHERS.

I NOTICED YOUR WRIST

HAS A TATTOO.

IT LOOKS LIKE A BRACELET

ALMOST AT FIRST GLANCE

BUT IT IS A TATOO

AND IT SAYS...

Kasey: IT SAYS "REDEEMED."

Randy: WHAT LED YOU

TO PUT THE WORD REDEEMED

ON YOUR WRIST?

Kasey: WELL, I TELL YOU,

I DID NOT START OFF

WITH ANY DESIRE

TO TELL MY STORY

IN A PUBLIC WAY

ON A PLATFORM.

I GOT THE WORD REDEEMED

BECAUSE I NEEDED TO BE

REMINDED OF THAT

MORE THAN ANY OTHER WORD

IN MY LIFE.

Randy: WHY?

Kasey: BECAUSE I HAVE SPENT

MY LIFE AS A CHRISTIAN

BUT AS ONE EASILY

BELIEVING IN GOD

BUT NOT BELIEVING GOD.

IT WAS VERY EASY FOR ME

TO BELIEVE IN GOD

BECAUSE I GREW UP

IN A CHRISTIAN ENVIRONMENT,

A CHRISTIAN HOME.

IN FACT, I COULD SAY

I WAS PRACTICALLY BORN

INTO THE CHURCH NURSERY.

THERE'S SOME PERKS

TO BEING BORN

TO WHAT WOULD BE CONSIDERED

THE BIBLE BELT OF THE WORLD,

WHICH IS A SMALL TOWN

IN EAST TEXAS.

WE HAVE A CHURCH

ON EVERY CORNER.

IT IS VERY POPULAR

TO BE A CHRISTIAN;

IT IS COOL TO BE A CHRISTIAN.

BUT WHERE THAT CAN LEAD

TO TROUBLE IS GETTING OLDER

AND REALLY HAVING

THAT GUT CHECK,

THAT SALVATION CHECK

AND SAYING,

DID I EVER REALLY GET

THE RELATIONSHIP ASPECT

OF THAT?

BECAUSE IT IS VERY EASY

TO GO THROUGH THE MOTIONS

OF GOING TO CHURCH,

AND WE DID THAT.

AND I DID HAVE

A GENUINE SALVATION EXPERIENCE

AT THE AGE OF NINE;

I KNOW THAT BECAUSE

IT HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH ME.

I HAD A DRAW TO JESUS.

I WAS JUST DRAWN TO WHO HE WAS

AND HIS CHARACTER

AND THE FORGIVENESS.

I KNEW I NEEDED

TO BE FORGIVEN.

I KNEW I NEEDED A SAVIOR;

THERE WAS NO DOUBT ABOUT THAT.

SO I ACCEPTED THE LORD

AT THE AGE OF NINE

BUT VERY SOON AFTER

MY FAMILY SYSTEM

REALLY STARTED TO BE UNDONE

AND TO BE FRAYED

AROUND THE EDGES.

I WATCHED MY PARENTS GO

THROUGH A REALLY MESSY DIVORCE

AT THE AGE OF 13.

AND BEING THE OLDEST SIBLING,

I TOOK ON THAT PROTECTOR ROLE

FOR MY YOUNGER TWO SIBLINGS.

I DIDN'T WANT THEM

TO SEE ALL THE THINGS

THAT I THOUGHT I WAS SEEING

WAY TOO EARLY IN LIFE.

IT WAS A DIFFICULT SCENARIO

IN THAT MY PARENTS BECAME

TWO VERY DIFFERENT PEOPLE

OVERNIGHT.

WE DIDN'T TALK ABOUT IT.

WE DIDN'T COMMUNICATE SO

THERE WAS A LOT OF ROOM LEFT

TO BELIEVE IT WAS YOUR FAULT,

THAT THIS HAPPENED

BECAUSE OF YOU AND THERE WAS

NO ONE TELLING YOU

ANYTHING DIFFERENTLY.

SO FROM THE AGE OF 13 TO 15,

I REALLY BEGAN TO DOUBT GOD.

I BELIEVE IN GOD,

I GO TO CHURCH EVERY SUNDAY,

I GO THROUGH THE MOTIONS BUT

I'M REALLY STRUGGLING, GOD,

WHAT YOU SAY ABOUT ME.

WHY IS ALL THIS HAPPENING?

IF THIS IS WHO YOU ARE

AND YOU WANT THE BEST FOR US

AND YOU WANT

GOOD THINGS FOR US

AND IF WE JUST LIVE THIS WAY,

IF WE JUST LIVE THE RIGHT WAY

AND GO TO CHURCH

AND READ OUR BIBLES

AND HANG OUT

WITH CHRISTIAN PEOPLE

AND LOOK THE PART,

THEN YOU'RE GOING

TO BLESS US, RIGHT?

-- AND TO SEE THAT BEGIN

TO BE CHALLENGED IN MY LIFE.

I REALLY HUNG ON THERE

FOR A GOOD TWO YEARS AS A --

YOUR CRITICAL YEARS

WHERE YOU'RE FORMING

YOUR SELF CONCEPT,

THE AGES OF 13 TO 15.

AND WHILE ALL MY FRIENDS

WERE GOING OUT

AND HAVING THEIR FIRST DATES

AND THEIR FIRST KISSES

AND EVERYTHING,

I WAS BABYSITTING OR

TAKING CARE OF MY YOUNGEST --

MY SISTER IS

10 YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME.

Randy: AT 15,

SOMETHING TRIGGERED

A LOT OF THINGS THOUGH.

Kasey: YEAH,

I HAD ALREADY DEVELOPED THIS

VERY DEEP-SEEDED WOUNDING

OF FEELING REJECTED,

FEELING UNWORTHY,

INSECURITY BECAUSE I GREW UP

IN A FATHERLESS HOME.

MY DAD WAS JUST NONEXISTENT

IN OUR HOME.

WHEN WE WERE AROUND EACH OTHER

IT WAS JUST FIGHTING

AND ARGUING AND ALCOHOL.

SO I REALLY HAD THAT DESIRE

TO WANT -- BY A MAN,

TO WANT TO BE TOLD

THAT I WAS OF VALUE

AND WORTH AND LOVE.

ALL WOMEN, WE'RE JUST

BORN WITH THAT DESIRE.

BUT AT 15,

MY VERY FIRST BOYFRIEND,

IT WAS A DATE RAPE SITUATION.

IT WAS VERY ABUSIVE.

TO HAVE THAT

AS YOUR FIRST ENCOUNTER

WITH A BOY

WHEN YOU'VE SO LONGED --

YOU'VE WATCHED

ALL YOUR FRIENDS

GO ON THE DATES TO THE MOVIES

AND HOLD HANDS AND HAVE KISSES

AND THIS IS THE FIRST THING

I EXPERIENCED.

IT REALLY JUST STRIPPED ME

OF ALL THAT I HAD

BEEN HOLDING ONTO.

I'D BEEN HOLDING

ONTO SOMETHING,

A PIECE OF SOMETHING,

BELIEVING GOD.

THEN TO HAVE THAT HAPPEN...

Randy: SO HOW

DID YOU RESPOND TO THAT?

Kasey: UNFORTUNATELY,

I JUST REBELLED.

I JUST GOT TO A PLACE WHERE

I SAID, YOU KNOW WHAT, GOD?

YOU'RE GOING TO LET THIS

HAPPEN TO ME?

Randy: YOU BLAMED GOD

FOR LETTING THAT HAPPEN.

Kasey: I REALLY DID.

I DIDN'T KNOW ANY BETTER.

I DIDN'T HAVE ANYBODY

IN MY LIFE SPEAKING TRUTH

AND ENCOURAGEMENT

AND GOING THROUGH THAT

AND SAYING, "KASEY,

LET'S TALK ABOUT

WHY THIS HAPPENED."

I HAD THE

TRUE LOVE WAITS RING ON.

I WAS SAVING MYSELF

AND THEN THIS HAPPENED.

Debbie: WHAT WAS

YOUR TURNING MOMENT?

WHAT TURNED IT

AROUND FOR YOU?

Kasey: WELL, MY TEENAGE YEARS

WERE REALLY JUST A BLUR

OF REBELLION.

I SAY THAT I HAD THIS WOUND

THAT WAS OPEN AND BLEEDING

AND I JUST CONTINUED

TO TEAR IT APART.

I JUST CONTINUED

BY DOING THINGS --

I HAD ADDICTIVE BEHAVIORS.

AS ANYTHING THAT WE DO,

WE'RE SEARCHING

FOR THAT BAND-AID FIX.

WE'RE SEARCHING FOR ANYTHING

TO EASE THE PAIN,

FOR ANYTHING TO COMFORT US

IN THAT PLACE OF HURTING.

SO I LASHED OUT AND

I HAD AN EATING DISORDER

THAT HOSPITALIZED ME.

I WOULD CUT -- CUT MYSELF

BECAUSE THE CUTTING

ALLOWED YOU A SENSE OF POWER

IN A WAY WHEN YOU FELT

COMPLETELY POWERLESS.

YOU COULD FEEL PAIN.

I WAS SEXUALLY PROMISCUOUS

AS A TEENAGER;

ALL THE WHILE KNOWING

I WAS A BELIEVER BECAUSE

I WAS DISGUSTED BY THAT PLACE,

BY THAT SIN.

I WOULD BE CUTTING MY ARM

AND JUST BEGGING GOD

TO TAKE IT AWAY.

I WOULD LEAVE

EVERY ENCOUNTER WITH A GUY

JUST IN SOBS, JUST BROKEN,

KNOWING THE SPIRIT WAS

CONVICTING ME OF THAT SIN.

THEN AT THE AGE OF 18,

I DID REPENT OF THOSE SINS.

THIS IS A CLICHÉ TO HAVE

YOUR COME-TO-JESUS MOMENT

HAPPEN AT CHURCH CAMP BUT

IT HAPPENED AT CHURCH CAMP

ON A MOUNTAINTOP,

MY MOUNTAINTOP MOMENT --

IN GLORIETA, NEW MEXICO.

I'LL NEVER FORGET IT BECAUSE

MY HEART WAS JUST BROKEN

FOR MY SIN.

GOD WILL NOT ALLOW

HIS CHILDREN

TO SIN SUCCESSFULLY.

HE WILL BREAK US AT SOME POINT

IF WE DO NOT COME --

IN HIS PATIENCE HE ALLOWS US

TO COME TO REPENTANCE.

Randy: DO YOU THINK

HE JUST WAS WANTING YOU

TO STOP SINNING?

Kasey: I THINK HE WAS JUST

WANTING ME TO COME TO HIM.

ABSOLUTELY, DID HE WANT ME

TO STOP SINNING BUT WHY?

BECAUSE IT WAS

WHAT WAS BEST FOR ME.

BECAUSE IT WOULD MAKE ME

MORE LIKE HIS SON.

BECAUSE HE HAD

A DIVINE PURPOSE FOR MY LIFE

THAT I HAD NOT

DISQUALIFIED MYSELF FROM.

NOTHING THAT I COULD DO

OR WOULD DO WOULD EVER

DISQUALIFY ME FROM

THIS PURPOSE HE HAD LAID OUT.

Randy: WHAT ABOUT ALL

THE HURTS AND THINGS,

THE INSECURITIES?

DID YOU DEAL WITH ALL THAT?

Kasey: I WISH THAT I COULD SAY

THAT I GAVE IT ALL OVER

ON THAT MOUNTAINTOP.

WHILE I GAVE HIM MANY THINGS,

I SURRENDERED THE BEHAVIORS,

THERE WAS ONE THING

I HAD NOT SURRENDERED

AND THAT WAS THE WOUND, THAT

WAS THE ORIGINAL AFFLICTION

AND WOUNDING IN MY HEART

DEEP EMBEDDED INSECURITY.

GOD IN HIS MERCY AND GRACE,

HE ALLOWED ME THIS SEASON

OF REALLY REFRESHING ME,

OF DRAWING ME BACK TO HIM,

REMINDING ME OF WHO HE WAS

AND WHO I WAS IN HIM.

HE DID THAT THROUGH

ME MEETING MY HUSBAND

WHO WAS THE MAN I THOUGHT

I WOULD NEVER RECEIVE.

HE WAS PURE AND HAD SAVED

HIMSELF FOR MARRIAGE AND

WAS JUST A GODLY, GODLY MAN;

MY HUSBAND, JUSTIN.

HE DID THAT BY BLESSING ME

WITH TWO CHILDREN,

TWO HEALTHY CHILDREN,

MY EMMA GRACE AND MY LAKE.

I WISH THAT I COULD SAY

THAT I HAD GIVEN ALL OF THAT

OVER TO HIM BUT I KEPT

THAT WOUNDING FOR MYSELF.

I KEPT THAT PLACE THINKING

THAT I COULD DEAL WITH IT.

I COULD DEAL WITH IT.

Randy: HOW DID THAT RESURFACE?

Kasey: WELL, IT RESURFACED

IN MY MARRIAGE.

I STRUGGLED WITH DEPRESSION

AFTER MY DAUGHTER WAS BORN.

I WAS THE GIRL THAT SAID

POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION

WAS A MYTH

AND THAT IT WAS JUST

A CRUTCH THAT US MOMS USED

TO WEAR FLANNEL PAJAMAS

AND EAT BONBONS

AND WATCH OPRAH.

BUT WHEN YOU'RE IN

THE MIDST OF IT,

IT IS THE REAL DEAL,

AND I WAS DEFINITELY

ON THE MANIC SIDE.

I COULDN'T SLEEP.

I WAS VERY ANXIOUS ALL

THE TIME ABOUT EVERYTHING --

WORRIED ABOUT EVERYTHING.

SO I SEE MYSELF TURNING

INTO A PERSON THAT I'M NOT.

MY HUSBAND THEN NOT KNOWING

HOW TO RESPOND TO THIS,

I'M NOT COMMUNICATING,

HE SHUTS DOWN,

WE BOTH START TO SHUT DOWN,

WHICH MANY PARENTS DO

WITH THEIR FIRST CHILD.

THAT'S A BIG TRANSITION,

YOU'RE KIND OF JUST GETTING BY

-- EVERY DAY YOU'RE

JUST GETTING BY.

IN OUR MARRIAGE,

IT WASN'T THAT WE DIDN'T

LOVE EACH OTHER

IT IS JUST THAT WE DIDN'T

LIKE EACH OTHER VERY MUCH.

WHEN YOU STOP CARING

AND YOU STOP DATING

AND YOU STOP PURSUING

ONE ANOTHER, THEN WHAT

HAPPENED IN OUR MARRIAGE

IS INEVITABLE IN ANY MARRIAGE,

AND I TURNED TO ANOTHER MAN

OUTSIDE OF MY MARRIAGE

TO AGAIN TRY TO BE

THAT BAND-AID FIX,

FEED THAT WOUNDING,

THAT INSECURITY,

THAT UNWORTHINESS.

THREE YEARS IN AND OUT

OF THIS RELATIONSHIP

OUTSIDE OF MY MARRIAGE --

Randy: AND YOUR HUSBAND

HAD NO IDEA?

Kasey: NO IDEA -- NO IDEA.

THE AMAZING,

AMAZING GRACIOUS THING

ABOUT THIS ENTIRE SITUATION

IS MY HUSBAND;

IN THAT THE MOMENT

THAT THIS SECRET

WAS BROUGHT TO LIGHT,

HE WAS THE PICTURE

OF JESUS CHRIST.

HE WAS FORGIVING;

HE'LL TELL YOU THAT

THE SPIRIT CAME UPON HIM

BECAUSE HE DIDN'T KNOW

WHAT HE WAS SAYING

AS HE WAS SAYING IT.

THAT HE WAS JUST SAYING,

"I FORGIVE YOU. I LOVE YOU.

I FORGIVE YOU. I LOVE YOU."

THE HURT AND THE BETRAYAL,

IT WAS THE HARDEST DAY

OF MY LIFE.

CANCER IS NOTHING TO COMING

INTO SOMETHING LIKE THIS

BUT THEN TO SEE JESUS IN THAT.

MY HUSBAND THEN

EVEN WENT A STEP FURTHER

AND HE ACKNOWLEDGED

THE PLACE THAT HE HAD

THE ROLE THAT HE HAD

IN THIS HAPPENING,

THAT HE HAD STOPPED CARING.

AND THAT HE HAD

STOPPED PROTECTING ME

AND TAKING CARE OF ME.

SO TO SEE HIM

NOT ONLY FORGIVE ME

BUT TO FORGIVE THE OTHER MAN,

WENT TO HIS HOME

AND FORGAVE HIM TO HIS FACE

THAT SAME DAY.

JUST INCREDIBLE.

IMMEDIATELY, I HAVE

A WEIGHT LIFTED OFF.

IT'S LIKE COMING UP

OUT OF A COMA.

THAT'S WHAT I WANT TO BE

CLEAR ABOUT AS CHRISTIANS,

WE TEND TO LOOK

AT OTHER PEOPLE

WHO ARE STRUGGLING

WITH THESE QUOTE UNQUOTE

"BIG SINS" LIKE ADULTERY

OR THEFT OR MURDER, WHATEVER

-- THESE BIG SINS

AND WE TEND TO PUSH THAT

TO THE SIDE

IN ANOTHER CATEGORY.

I THINK WE THINK

THAT THEY'RE HAVING FUN

IN THOSE SITUATIONS,

THAT THEY'RE SOMEHOW

HAVING A GOOD TIME.

WHAT WAS REALLY HAPPENING IS

I WAS DECAYING ON THE INSIDE.

I WAS RUNNING FEVER

AND I WAS SICK AND

I HAD DROPPED SO MUCH WEIGHT

AND MY BODY WAS DETERIORATING

IN THE SIN.

IT WAS NOT MEANT FOR THAT

ANY LONGER SO IT JUST

COULDN'T HOLD IT UP.

I JUST CRIED OUT TO GOD,

PLEASE TAKE MY LIFE BECAUSE

I CAN'T CARRY THIS ANYMORE.

THAT DAY I PRAYED THAT PRAYER,

CRIED OUT TO HIM AT 8:30 A.M.

AND AT 12:30 P.M.

THAT SAME DAY

THE SIN CAME TO LIGHT.

IT WAS JUST GOD'S MERCY

AND HIS BRINGING ME BACK

TO HIM AND SAYING, "LOOK,

I'M NOT DONE WITH YOU."

UNFORTUNATELY,

THE GOSSIP BEGAN THEN.

MY HUSBAND AND I ARE

EXPERIENCING THIS

REJUVENATION IN OUR MARRIAGE.

WE'RE EXPERIENCING

THIS TRUST BUILDING AGAIN

WHERE THIS -- WE'RE

KNOWING EACH OTHER AGAIN

FOR THE FIRST TIME

AND THINGS ARE SO GOOD FOR US

BUT EVERYBODY ELSE,

DIFFERENT STORY.

SO THESE LIES BEGIN,

THESE RUMORS BEGIN

AND THE GOSSIP BEGINS

AND IT'S JUST CRUSHING TO ME

AS ONE THAT IS VERY SOCIAL

AND OUTGOING AND LOVES PEOPLE,

AND THEN TO GO TO

THE GROCERY STORE AND

SOMEONE WHO WAS YOUR FRIEND

IS APPARENTLY

NO LONGER YOUR FRIEND,

AND GO TO CHURCH AND BE

REJECTED BY YOUR CHURCH.

IT IS JUST -- IT WAS MORE

THAN I THOUGHT I COULD TAKE.

Randy: IN FAIRNESS,

NOT JUST THE LIES

AND THE GOSSIP,

WHICH NO DOUBT HAPPENED

BUT THE TRUTH WAS OUT THERE.

HOW DID YOU GET UP

IN THE MORNING KNOWING THAT

EVERYBODY KNOWS THE TRUTH

MUCH LESS THE OTHER STUFF?

Kasey: IT WAS JUST

GOD'S STRENGTH THAT I GOT UP

BECAUSE THERE WAS

NOTHING LEFT IN ME.

I HAD NO DESIRE TO GET UP.

AND THREE WEEKS AFTER

THE LIGHT --

THE SECRET CAME TO LIGHT,

I ATTEMPTED TO TAKE MY LIFE

BECAUSE THAT --.

IN THE MOMENT,

YOU SAY THAT TAKING YOUR LIFE

IS THE MOST SELFISH THING

AND IT IS, BUT FOR

THE PERSON CONSIDERING IT,

IT'S THE LEAST SELFISH THING.

FOR THE PERSON CONSIDERING IT,

TO BE THE TRUTH,

TO BE THE PERSON THAT YOU

NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD BE,

THAT YOU ALWAYS SAID

YOU WOULD NEVER DO THAT --

AND THEN FOR THE RUMOR

TO BE TRUE.

IT JUST BREAKS YOU

FOR EVERYTHING THAT YOU ARE

AND SATAN IS THERE.

HE WANTS YOU TO BELIEVE.

Randy: ON THE ONE HAND

YOU'RE SAYING, HERE'S

MY HUSBAND FORGIVING ME

AND HERE'S THIS WEIGHT

LIFTED OFF OF MY LIFE.

HOW DOES IT SPIRAL

DOWNHILL FROM THERE?

Kasey: BECAUSE IF

I'M LOOKING TO MY HUSBAND

TO AGAIN FILL THAT GAP

IN HIS FORGIVENESS, IT'S STILL

NOT GOING TO WORK, IS IT?

BECAUSE HE IS FLESH.

SO THE BIG CHANGE FOR ME,

I WAS SO BROKEN, I MEAN

I SAY I WAS A DEAD WOMAN.

IT WAS JUST BY

THE GRACE OF GOD

THAT I DID NOT DIE THAT DAY,

THAT I LIVED

AND HE PULLED ME UP.

THERE WAS NOTHING ELSE

RESPONSIBLE,

NOT MY HUSBAND'S FORGIVENESS,

NOT A FRIENDSHIP,

NOT MY CHURCH,

NOTHING ELSE RESPONSIBLE.

I WAS DEAD

AND HE BROUGHT ME UP TO LIFE.

AND HE SPOKE

THAT TRUTH OVER ME.

THAT'S WHERE THIS BOOK

CAME FROM.

THAT NEXT THREE MONTHS

I CALL MY SUMMER

OF SANCTIFICATION BECAUSE

I JUST SECLUDED MYSELF

TO MY HOME.

I DID NOTHING --

I SAW NO ONE --

DID NOT TALK ON THE PHONE,

NO INTERNET, NO SOCIAL MEDIA,

NOTHING;

I CUT DOWN ALL CONNECTION

WITH THE OUTSIDE WORLD JUST

SO I COULD EXPERIENCE GOD

AGAIN AND COME BACK TO HIM.

Randy: TO HEAL FINALLY.

Kasey: TO HEAL.

THE BIG REDEMPTION

IS THAT I LEARNED THAT JUST

SURRENDER IS NOT ENOUGH --

JUST REDEMPTION IS NOT ENOUGH.

BUT WHEN YOU PUT

THOSE TWO THINGS TOGETHER,

YOU TALK ABOUT

ABUNDANT LIVING,

YOU TALK ABOUT FREEDOM.

WHEN YOU CAN SURRENDER

AND LOOK, I WAS SURRENDERING

THE BEHAVIORS BUT

THOSE WERE JUST SYMPTOMS

OF THE INFECTION --

THAT WAS JUST A SYMPTOM.

EVERYTHING WE DO IS A SYMPTOM

OF SOMETHING DEEPER.

I HAD TO SURRENDER

THAT PLACE OF BITTERNESS,

THAT PLACE OF ANGER,

THAT PLACE OF RESENTMENT,

OF NEEDING TO BE FILLED,

THAT INSECURITY.

ONCE I COULD SURRENDER THAT

AND THEN GO A STEP FURTHER

AND START TO BELIEVE,

NOT THESE OTHER PEOPLE,

NOT MY COMMUNITY,

NOT THE CHURCH NECESSARILY,

BUT WHAT DOES GOD SAY

ABOUT ME?

THAT'S REDEMPTION.

Randy: THAT'S THE NAMES

THAT YOU TALK ABOUT

IN NAMED BY GOD.

I WANT TO THANK YOU

FOR BEING HERE AND SHARING

SO OPENLY AND CANDIDLY.

Kasey: THANK YOU!

THANK YOU FOR HAVING ME.

Randy: IT IS IMPORTANT THOUGH

THAT PEOPLE SEE

WHERE YOU'VE BEEN

AND WHERE GOD HAS TAKEN YOU

BECAUSE SO MANY PEOPLE

ARE IN SOME STAGE

OF THAT RIGHT NOW.

IF YOU WANT TO READ

KASEY'S FULL STORY,

IT IS AVAILABLE

AND WE ARE GIVING THIS BOOK

TO YOU WITH YOUR GIFT TOWARDS

MISSION: WATER FOR LIFE.

I REALLY KNOW --

IT'S GOING TO BLESS YOU

OR SOMEBODY PERHAPS THAT

YOU KNOW BUT AT THE SAME TIME,

WHEN YOU SUPPORT OUR OUTREACH,

YOU ARE GOING TO BLESS

SOMEONE ELSE.

REAL QUICKLY,

I WANT TO TAKE YOU

HALF WAY AROUND THE WORLD

SO THAT YOU CAN SEE

WHERE I WENT AS WE

REACH OUT AND SHARE WATER

WITH PEOPLE AROUND THE WORLD.

Randy: I WANT TO LOOK AT THIS WATER. GOOD LORD!

AH! IT SMELLS HORRIBLE.

IT SMELLS WORSE THAN IT LOOKS!

BUT THIS IS WHAT THEY DRINK

BECAUSE THIS IS ALL THEY HAVE TO DRINK.

THIS IS NOT WATER THAT YOU CAN LIVE FROM.

THIS IS WATER THAT WILL KILL YOU.

I HAVE SEEN DISEASES, I'VE SEEN CHILDREN WITH SORES

AND KIDS WITH DIARRHEA, I'VE SEEN GRAVES.

I'VE SAT WITH A MOTHER

WHILE SHE WEPT OVER HER CHILDREN THAT SHE LOST

BECAUSE OF THIS CONTAMINATED WATER.

THIS IS DEATH WATER AND IT'S KILLING THEIR CHILDREN.

I WOULD NEVER MAKE A CHILD DRINK THIS.

BUT THESE CHILDREN HAVE NO CHOICE.

IT IS THIS OR NOTHING

AND SOME OF THEM DON'T KNOW THAT IT WILL KILL THEM.

IT'S NOT ENOUGH TO TELL THEM, "DON'T DRINK THE WATER."

WE HAVE TO SAY, "HERE'S WATER YOU CAN DRINK."

JESUS CALLS HIMSELF "LIVING WATER"

BECAUSE HE BRINGS LIFE.

WE ARE HIS HANDS AND HIS FEET.

HELP US DEMONSTRATE THE GOSPEL

AS WE BRING THEM WATER FOR LIFE.

Randy: YOU KNOW THERE'S NOT

MUCH BETTER IN THIS WORLD

THAN TO SEE A CHILD SMILE?

AND WHEN YOU KNOW

THEY'RE SMILING BECAUSE

YOU JOINED WITH US

IN MISSION: WATER FOR LIFE

AND MADE THAT FRESH CLEAN

DRINKING WATER POSSIBLE,

I TELL YOU WHAT,

THAT'S A FEELING --

THERE IS NOT MUCH BETTER

IN THIS WORLD

THAT'S BETTER THAN THAT.

THAT'S THE INVITATION

I WANT TO EXTEND TO YOU

RIGHT NOW.

JOIN WITH US

ON MISSION: WATER FOR LIFE.

YOU CAN IMPACT A LIFE

FOR THEIR LIFETIME.

IT'S A GIFT

THAT KEEPS ON GIVING.

THE AVERAGE WELL IS $4800

AND THAT REACHES AN AVERAGE

OF 1,000 PEOPLE.

I KNOW IN THAT VILLAGE

I WAS IN, THERE WERE MORE

THAN 1,000 IN THAT AREA

THAT WOULD COME TO THAT WELL

TO GET CLEAN DRINKING WATER

BUT ON AVERAGE,

THAT'S WHAT IT DOES.

SO YOUR GIFT OF $4800

WILL REACH 1,000 PEOPLE.

YOU WILL GIVE THEM

CLEAN DRINKING WATER.

WHAT A HUGE THING!

YOU WILL ERADICATE SICKNESS

AND YOU WILL SHOW THEM

THE LOVE OF JESUS CHRIST.

WHEREVER WE GO,

WE'RE NOT SHY ABOUT THE FACT

THAT WE ARE THERE

REPRESENTING JESUS CHRIST.

WE ARE HIS HANDS,

WE ARE HIS FEET;

THAT'S WHAT

THE BIBLE TELLS US.

I WANT YOU TO DO THAT

RIGHT NOW.

IF YOU CAN GIVE $1200,

WE'LL SEND YOU

"THE LION AND THE LAMB" BRONZE

THAT WILL SERVE AS A REMINDER

OF YOUR GIFT

AND I HOPE YOU'LL PUT IT

SOMEWHERE THAT YOU CAN SEE IT

AND YOU'LL REMEMBER THE SMILE

THAT YOU SAW BECAUSE

YOU'RE PUTTING SMILES

ON OTHER CHILDREN'S FACES.

SOME OF YOU,

THAT'S A LOT OF MONEY,

I UNDERSTAND.

I WANT YOU TO KNOW

THAT THERE'S NOT A GIFT

THAT'S TOO BIG

BUT THERE'S NOT A GIFT

THAT'S TOO SMALL.

$48 WILL GIVE WATER

TO 10 PEOPLE.

HOW SIMPLE IS THAT?

IT IS SIMPLE AND YET

THE IMPACT IS PROFOUND,

AND SO LONG --

IT JUST KEEPS ON GIVING.

THAT'S THE THING

THAT JUST ASTOUNDS ME

IS HOW A SIMPLE ACT

OF DRILLING A WATER WELL

HAS SUCH INCREDIBLE IMPACT

FOR YEARS AND GENERATIONS.

WILL YOU JOIN US RIGHT NOW?

WILL YOU GO TO THE PHONE?

CALL US AND MAKE

THE BEST GIFT YOU CAN.

REALLY, IT'S ALL ABOUT

OBEYING GOD'S

GREAT COMMISSION

TO GO OUT AND REACH OTHERS.

SO DON'T GET HUNG UP ON

WHAT YOU CAN OR CAN'T GIVE.

JUST OBEY GOD

AND JOIN WITH US

IN THIS GREAT MISSION.

GO ONLINE, THERE'S

THE WEB SITE RIGHT THERE.

THAT'S HOW I GIVE.

DO WHAT YOU CAN.

IF WE WILL ALL JOIN TOGETHER,

WE WILL REACH OUR GOAL,

HUNDREDS OF WELLS

IN SO MANY COUNTRIES

IMPACTING SO MANY LIVES

BUT WE CAN'T DO IT

WITHOUT YOU.

JOIN US NOW -- JOIN US

IN MISSION: WATER FOR LIFE

AND THANK YOU AS YOU GIVE.

Announcer: EVERY DAY MILLIONS OF CHILDREN

ARE FORCED TO MAKE A DREADFUL CHOICE,

DRINK FILTHY POLLUTED WATER FILLED WITH DEADLY DISEASE

OR DIE FROM THIRST.

NO CHILD SHOULD EVER BE FACED WITH THIS DECISION!

THE GOOD NEWS IS THERE IS A SOLUTION!

MISSION: WATER FOR LIFE

IS ONE OF THE MOST EXCITING AND VIABLE DEMONSTRATIONS

OF GOD'S LOVE IN THE WORLD TODAY.

SUFFERING CAN END

BECAUSE CLEAN WATER CHANGES EVERYTHING!

WITH YOUR GIFT TODAY, WE CAN ESTABLISH

AND DRILL 350 NEW WATER WELLS

FOR REMOTE VILLAGES IN 12 DIFFERENT NATIONS.

YOUR GIFT OF $24

WILL HELP PROVIDE CLEAN WATER FOR FIVE PEOPLE!

A GIFT OF $48 WILL HELP PROVIDE FOR 10 PEOPLE.

$72 WILL IMPACT 15 PEOPLE.

AND $144 WILL HELP PROVIDE FRESH, CLEAN,

DISEASE-FREE WATER

FOR 30 PEOPLE FOR A LIFETIME!

WITH YOUR GIFT BE SURE TO REQUEST ARISE,

A BEAUTIFUL NEW DAILY DEVOTIONAL

FEATURING WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT FROM INSPIRING WOMEN

WHO HAVE SHARED THEIR FAITH ON LIFE TODAY.

WITH YOUR GIFT OF $100 OR MORE,

YOU MAY REQUEST THE ARISE AUDIO VISUAL DEVOTIONAL

FEATURING 40 DAYS OF INSPIRATION

FROM LIFE TODAY'S FAVORITE WOMEN GUESTS.

PLEASE PRAYERFULLY CONSIDER A GIFT OF $1200

TO HELP PROVIDE WATER FOR 250 PEOPLE

OR A GIFT OF $4800

TO HELP SPONSOR A COMPLETE WELL.

AND BE SURE TO REQUEST THE 2012 COMMEMORATIVE BRONZE SCULPTURE,

"THE LION AND THE LAMB."

PLEASE CALL, WRITE, OR MAKE YOUR SECURE GIFT ONLINE TODAY!

James: I'M KNEELING DOWN HERE BY WHAT IS

A COMMON WATER SOURCE FOR LITTLE VILLAGE AREAS.

THIS RIVER MEANDERS THROUGH THIS PART OF CENTRAL AMERICA.

IT'S THE WATER SOURCE.

IT'S CONTAMINATED WITH ANIMAL WASTE.

IT'S CONTAMINATED WITH HUMAN WASTE

BECAUSE THEY DON'T HAVE ANY SEWAGE,

THEY HAVE NO RUNNING WATER.

SO THEY GO TO THE BATHROOM OUT HERE IN THE BUSH AND THE BRUSH,

AND THEN IT WASHES HERE.

AND PEOPLE GET ALL KINDS OF INTESTINAL DISEASES.

AND CLEAN WATER, FRESH WATER,

THAT'S THE ANSWER.

THIS IS WHAT THEY HAVE NOW MAKING THEM SICK,

KILLING A LOT OF THEM VERY YOUNG.

BUT WE CAN GIVE THEM A FRESHWATER WELL.

YOU MAY BE ABLE TO GIVE ONE OR GIVE TOWARD IT

OR GIVE A CUP OF WATER

THAT ADDS UP AND BECOMES A WELL OF WATER

BUT WE NEED EVERYONE'S HELP.

YOU MAKE A LIFE-GIVING CALL TODAY PLEASE.

Randy: THANK YOU SO MUCH

FOR HELPING WITH

MISSION: WATER FOR LIFE

AND DO ASK FOR KASEY'S BOOK.

IT'S GOING TO BLESS YOU.

AND VISIT HER WEB SITE,

KASEYVANNORMAN.COM.

YOU CAN FIND OUT ABOUT HER

AND YOU CAN EVEN ASK HER

TO COME SPEAK TO YOUR

WOMEN'S GROUP OR CHURCH.

I'M SURE SHE WOULD BE

A GREAT BLESSING TO YOU.

THANKS AGAIN

FOR SHARING YOUR STORY.

WOULD YOU THANK KASEY FOR

BEING HERE ON LIFE TODAY?

THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Announcer: FAITH, FAMILY, AND FREEDOM ARE UNDER ATTACK.

AS AMERICA FACES BATTLES WITHIN,

MANY WONDER WHERE TO TURN.

IN THEIR NEW BOOK, JAMES ROBISON AND JAY RICHARDS

CALL US TO STAND TOGETHER BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE

AS ONE NATION TRULY UNDER GOD.

INDIVISIBLE -- THE NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER

NOW AVAILABLE IN PAPERBACK AND ONLINE AND RETAIL BOOKSTORES.

Beth: BUT GOD'S PLAN IS ALWAYS TO HEAL.

YOU'VE NOT BEEN THROUGH THE ONE THING

THAT JESUS CHRIST CANNOT HEAL.

Announcer: OVERCOMING FAMILY CALAMITY -- TOMORROW!